Rainbow Bridge

31 Jul

Shared in a few doodle groups today. Made me cry and I wanted share. I know what it feels like to lose a pet. I know how hard your heart and your head hurts processing the loss. Everyone heals at a different pace in a different way but I just want to say I can relate to what you are feeling…..

A Letter from the Rainbow Bridge

Hi, Mom

Now that I’ve been across The Rainbow Bridge for a couple weeks, they said I should write a letter home. Sorry, Mom but I’m so busy ‘across the bridge’ that I haven’t thought of home much. They said it’s okay and that you would understand. I hope you do. (I think you will.)

Remember that night when I wasn’t feeling very well and we were all crying? I don’t remember much, but I do remember seeing and hearing all of you and feeling your touches and hugs…I remember hearing “we love you” and that one last command of “Go through”. I didn’t know what you meant, so I turned around and walked through the fog that was in front of me. I saw the biggest bridge I’ve ever seen! And so many friends on the other side of it! They were all playing with toys and balls! You were right to tell me to go there!

My feet kept moving forward, but my heart kept pulling me back. Your touches became lighter and lighter and I wanted to come back and nudge your hands for more love, but I was overcome by this feeling of curiosity for the happy place over the bridge! My feet started moving on their own, like a gentle breeze was moving them forward for me! I can’t explain it, but I had no doubt that it was the right thing to do!

So, I walked across that big, huge bridge by myself! I looked for you, because you’re always by my side, walking with me, but this was different. I didn’t have a collar around my neck or a leash connecting me to you ~ I was ‘free’! Even though you weren’t there with me, I never felt alone! I actually felt like I had a huge cape of love wrapped around my body and the more I walked, the easier it was to breathe! So, I kept walking! And I would feel more warmth in the big hug, so I kept on walking! I eventually made it over the big bridge – I did it by myself, mom. When I got here, all of my new friends greeted me and helped me walk off the bridge ~ it was so cool! They gave me a pair of wings and said that I was now a Guardian Angel!

What I’ve learned over these past few weeks has been amazing and nothing like I’ve seen before! We’re all the same up here ~ we all have wings and we all have Forever People to watch over ~ that’s YOU, mom !You’re my Forever Person and I’m your Forever Dog! We had such a great life together and I do miss you a LOT, but please know that I am so happy in my new home across The Bridge!

I’ll send you another Earth Angel so you won’t be alone. Give them your whole heart, like you gave it to me. I’ll check in every so often to make sure they treasure your love ~ I always did! When you miss me, think of a rainbow and know I’m on the other side of it, waiting to walk with you again. I’ll always be in your heart. I love you, mom! Time for me to go play.

We lost one of our families members a month ago. It has taken me a MONTH to process this enough to really post about it. It’s hard. Kingston was a JLo/Koa puppy and this happened one week after his 3rd birthday. We did get a necropy and it was ruled out that is was a genetic issue. Again, it was not a genetic issue and no reason for my families to be concerned. It is important for me to honor my grand pup and his memory and honestly I need to share for me to process my grief so I won’t keep this private in fear it will scare off new families or even scare my existing families. I spoke to two different vets that saw the report and said honestly it is sometimes hard to pinpoint exactly the cause of death. This makes it harder for me to process the loss. I need a reason and unfortunately I will never get one. I love this family and am so grateful that I got a text and was able to get down to Seattle to the vet and see him on his last day. I think part of what keeps me from having a total meltdown is that I saw Kingston on his first and last day and held and kissed him on both. On Kingston’s last day he was swimming in Lake Washington and running around playing and really having a great day. I like thinking that his last day was an experience like this – running and swimming and HAPPY. As he walked back from the park he had to be carried and in my mind I assume he just felt really tired. I don’t picture him scared at all, my assumption was he felt like he just needed a nap. He passed shortly after getting to the vet and although my heart has felt absolutely BROKEN about this I try to find the positive and repeatedly tell myself what a great life he had down to the very last minute. His family made this video and I wanted to share. I think you can see from all the pics and videos he was loved. So much.